A while ago, I had a pretty memorable conversation with a friend of mine. Actually, it was a text conversation, not a real conversation, but isn’t that the way things go in this day and age?
Anyway, during this conversation, we were casually talking about love, marriage, and life in general. My friend rattled off a list of things, both tangible and materialistic as well as intangible and meaningful. She said that it’s impossible to have it all. I thought about it for a few minutes, silently taking inventory of my life. I responded that I disagreed with her, because I really do feel like I have it all. Please indulge me this week as I share why I feel this way, truly looking at my life in the glass half full, making lemonade kind of way.
If we are talking about the material items, I am a simple person. I’ve never been fazed by fancy cars, name brand bags, and other high end merchandise that often impresses some people (although I do love my diamonds!). My car is nothing fancy, but I love it. It’s reliable, comfortable, good on gas, and most importantly, it’s safe. It has all the comforts I could want, and then some. It’s not the make or model of the vehicle that interests me, but rather that it always gets me where I’m going, and I didn’t have to sell any vital organs to afford it.
Over seven years ago, my husband and I moved into the home of our dreams. Since it was new construction, we were able to personalize everything just the way we wanted. We never thought we’d buy a brand new house. But we were smart to buy our first house when we did, we were smart with the updates we made there, and we were smart to sell when we did, which made it possible for us to even consider this new home. It’s not a McMansion, or even a large house. But it’s my home, and I love it. The truth is, I’d be happy anywhere as long as my little family is with me.
Still, those things are things we can buy. But the more important things can’t be bought. I chose a career I was passionate about and that I fully believed was my destiny. I loved being a teacher, and I know I was good at it. Some days I had so much fun that I couldn’t believe that I was actually being paid to do it. I connected with my students on so many levels, and I would be incomplete without them still in my life. I wasn’t ready to retire when I did, but I left feeling completely fulfilled by my career. I was at the top of my game, and I never became “that teacher” who stopped giving her all, 100% of the time.
I have awesome friends, in the MS community, and also outside of it. My MS friends are considered my “MS family”, and we support each other through everything. These are the only ones who will ever really get it, because we are all in the trenches together. They are beautiful and strong, and they each inspire me every single day. Without them, my world would feel empty. I am also blessed to have a few incredibly understanding and supportive friends who come as close to truly “getting it” as anyone who doesn’t have MS could possibly be. They read anything they can to learn about MS and how it might affect me, which makes me love them even more because they try so hard to get me.
I don’t have children, but I most certainly have a family. I am lucky enough to have an amazing husband who has stood at my side, without wavering, every step of the way. For the past 25 years, Bruce has been on my side, before MS, and now with it. He watched me struggle to recuperate from spinal fusion surgery, and remained my rock through breast cancer. How many people vow to be with their partners in “sickness and health’ and never really know what it means? How many people are actually tested on the strength of their marriage vows? Bruce was. And he is tested daily. But he sees beyond MS and what it has taken from me. He sees the person I have become in spite of it all. He is my laughter, my strength, and my joy. He balances my optimism with his realism and his pragmatic sensibility. We have an insanely happy and healthy marriage, and I never, ever take that for granted. Together with our two “fur babies” we have built a life that I wouldn’t trade for anything. We still like each other after all these years, and what’s more is that we are more in love now than ever.
Perhaps it’s because of my simple nature, or even my perspective on life… I have everything I need, and then some. I honestly feel as though I have it all. My friend said she didn’t think she would ever be able to say that about her life, and she told me that I’m so lucky to feel that way about mine. She’s right.