Monthly Archives: September 2018

Burlington

This past weekend, Bruce and I took a little getaway to our happy place in Burlington, Vermont. Instead of boring you with the details of how hard it was to leave my dogs in the hands of strangers for the first time ever, or talking about how much fun we had, I’m just sharing some of my favorite pictures from the trip. Enjoy!


The beautiful Hotel Vermont… We always stay here and always in the same room!

The beautiful view from our room.

Mandatory waterfront selfie.

I”m obsessed with this church.

Burlington is pretty eclectic!

Hearts everywhere!

Friends from high school who live in/near Burlington and it’s always so great to see them.

We did attend Oktoberfest for the 2nd year in a row.

A beautiful sunset that keeps getting better…

And better….

And better…

And better!

City Hall, Burlington

Beautiful waterfront park

Beautiful artwork on buildings!

Another one.

On one of our rides…

Cool colors!

I never get tired of this landscape.

Had to do it!

Camp

Once upon a time, we had a fabulous dog-sitter, who we trusted implicitly, and who used to come sleep over our house when we went out of town. I never worried about my babies, because I could text whenever I wanted to check in on how everything was going. Sadly, we lost our sitter, and cancelled a vacation that was scheduled because we had to come up with a Plan B.

Scarlet has been with us for over five years now, and she remains a nervous little girl. She runs away if you drop anything, including a napkin! She has a nervous tummy and she will decorate the house brown (if you know what I mean) the second we walk out the door, even if she has just taken care of her business outside right before we leave. But we love her to death and she’s about the sweetest thing ever. It’s hard to imagine that anyone surrendered her for any reason at all before she found her way to us.

Sweet Scarlet.

Then there’s Squiggy, our bald little boy. We rescued him from a high kill shelter back in April when we were finally ready to grow our family after losing our beloved Marty . Squiggy is all of seven pounds and he is just about the coolest little dude you’ll ever meet. He is so chill, and just rolls with everything. He definitely is a calming force for Scarlet.

Squiggy boy.

The best part about these two is how much they love each other. It’s what I’ve always wanted for my dogs but never happened for a variety of reasons. These two play together, sleep together, snuggle together, and Scarlet is even very motherly and will sweetly clean Squiggy’s eyes and face when she feels it is necessary.

Stacked and sleeping.

Poor Squiggy!

So when we lost our sitter, I had to scramble just so that we could find a solution and finally get out of town. I went looking at “pet resorts”, fell in love with the people at a place super close to home (which makes pick up and drop off so easy), and began the process of getting both of the kids the required vaccinations, which I never have given any of my dogs simply because they were never boarded anywhere.

When that part was done, we arranged first for a half day at “camp”, which is what I told them was where they were going. When I picked them up, I was told that Scarlet was a little nervous, but Squiggy was fine and seemed to calm her down a bit. They had fun with individual and group play time, which made me very happy.

The various angles I can zoom in on when using the app.

Then I arranged an overnight stay for them so that they would realize that I always come back for them. With rescue animals, you always wonder what goes through their little brains when their humans bring them to these strange places. My heart was breaking thinking  that they would feel abandoned yet again. That night, I missed the white noise of their little snores and their snuggles. But having the ability to check an app and see them sleeping against each other in their “suite” made me feel a gazillion times better. When I picked them up and they came running out to me, I knew it would be ok. The staff took such good care of them that I almost felt silly for being so anxious.

A good report card!

Anyone who says to me “they are just dogs” automatically loses my respect because they are way more than that for us. They are members of our family, who love us unconditionally and bring us endless joy, and finding a place that makes me comfortable is worth the peace of mind it gives me, regardless of the price.

Happy pups heading home in their car seat.

I could never go off on a vacation without being absolutely certain that my kids are cared for just as they are at home with me. So even if they are in their suite, they have each other, and because they love each other it’s even more comforting for me. Although vacationing is not the easiest for me, I realize the importance of it for me and Bruce, and I know I’ll still miss my babies, but I’ll just check on them when I feel the need. As a child I spent all my summers at sleepaway camp, where so many of my happy childhood memories come from. Even though they have tiny little brains, I like to think that my kids will enjoy the experience as much as I did.


(I know they will be ok and I am thrilled that our former sitter is happy with her new arrangement, but I will definitely miss coming home to a spotlessly cleaned kitchen and bathroom! Just sayin…)

Week One

This past weekend I started what may be the biggest, most impactful journey of my life. If you had asked me four years ago, I never would have believed that I’d be here, doing Yoga Teacher Training. I mean four years ago I hated yoga and swore it wasn’t for me. Yet here I am, embarking on this adventure and although the commitment is huge, I am beyond excited.

First day of school!

Commitment to anything long term is a scary proposition for anyone with MS, because of the unpredictable nature of the disease. I can’t control it, but at the same time, I am constantly trying to not let it control me. Part of my reason for choosing this moment in time to begin this training is because even though I can’t control MS, I can control certain things in my life: diet (because you are what you eat), meditation (to calm my mind), and exercise (to stay strong).

My teacher is true to the ancient teachings of yoga, shared from teacher to student over thousands of years. There is a lineage of amazing teachers that I am now a part of, receiving the knowledge in the same way as teachers past. It’s a pretty powerful concept when you think about it. Being a part of something so much bigger than me is mind-blowing.

The essentials for class: my binder, my pencil case, and my water. Oh and reading glasses because, you know… old eyes.

On day one we introduced ourselves to each other, explaining what has brought us to be together in this training at this moment in time.  We are a strong class… small but mighty.There are three of us students, which allows us to do so much more than a larger class would, and of course more will be joining in the last 100 hours. I knew we would gel because as we each spoke about our own personal reasons for enrolling in YTT, we cried at each others’ stories. The tissues were passed around multiple times, and the connection of energy that we shared was obvious from the first moment.

So I spent the entire weekend with this beautiful Satsang (“fellowship of human beings with similar spiritual aspirations”) as we began to discuss the philosophy and history of yoga, and of course we practiced together as well. There was so much information that my head was literally spinning with all that I had learned, in this very first session with my Satsang. I left feeling utterly exhausted yet invigorated, which made me think about how many times we talked about balance: Sun and Moon, Ha and Tha, right and left. I know that every single time we meet more pieces will come together and I will make the connections necessary to lead me farther down this glorious path.

I am more excited about this than I’ve been about anything in a really long time, and the outpouring of support I have received has energized me through my personal insecurities and self-doubt.

So the moral of this week’s entry is this: be brave. Be fearless. Do what makes you happy. Do not let your perceived weaknesses hold you back from anything. If your desire is true, you will find a way to work around them, even turning those weaknesses into strengths.

Bags packed and ready to go!

Grateful

Grateful. It’s a word that is thrown around so easily. We say thank you to everyone everywhere we go, because we are polite, and our parents always told us not to forget our pleases and thank yous. But when we truly feel gratitude and appreciation, we rise to a whole new plane of existence. I know, because I have.

When I was working, I didn’t know how to feel fully grateful because I couldn’t look beyond the blinders of my work. In fact, I didn’t feel many emotions at all, unless they were related to work: stress, pressure, and anxiety being right up at the top of the list. Seldom did I think about gratitude for anything beyond having a good day in the classroom, and crossing things off my never-ending to-do list after the students had gone home.

Staying after school (and coming in early) meant that I worked 11-12 hours every day.

It amazes me that I am even the same person because it has only been about five short years and the person I am today is so full of gratitude that some days I feel like my heart could just burst from it.

On a typical day, I am grateful from the second I wake up until the second I go to sleep, and I always take a moment to really savor the feeling. For example, I wake up and I’m grateful when both feet touch the floor and I am still able to ambulate freely. I am grateful for the one cup of coffee I drink, and that my husband makes it for me while I shake the sleep out of my head. I am grateful for any sleep I get because sleeping does not come easily when you suffer from chronic pain. I am grateful for the sun, even though I suffer from heat intolerance,  because I know its role in the seasons and in nature. I’m grateful for the rain (even though it makes my hair frizz up), because again, I understand how vital rain is in the scope of the world we live in. I am grateful for the car that gets me where I need to go, and my ability to be able to drive still, even though I don’t really love to drive. I am grateful for the beautiful community at the yoga studio and my scholarship that allows me to practice as much as I am able. I am grateful for my amazing MS family and how they lift me up all the time. I’m grateful for my trainer who believes in me and has been with me on this amazing journey as I have transformed my life and my body. I am grateful for the many former students who I am in touch with every single day, validating my work even though I’m not that person anymore. I am grateful for this beautiful home that Bru and I built together and that we fill up with love and laughter (and chihuahuas) each and every day.

A beautiful sunburst…

Amazing former students…

My MS family…

The best trainer ever…

A rainy day…

A cup of coffee…

And a couple of happy chis…. so much to be grateful for!

I don’t simply say that I am grateful, but as I go through my day I acknowledge in my heart how truly grateful I am for all the things I mentioned and more. I could easily dwell on the many things I have lost as a result of my life’s journey to date, but why would I? It’s not productive nor is it beneficial in any way. To truly feel gratitude deep within one’s soul makes life so much sweeter. Just like that lemonade I’m always talking about…

If you haven’t already, you should try it sometime! I guarantee you won’t be disappointed!

Eternally.